i love you to death, and you are such a beautiful person inside & out. i''m so lucky to have such an inspiring and strong girl like you to look up to in my life. i wish i had the strength like you. you are truely an amazing girl and i look up to you. please never change. you are a beautiful person and you are a blessed person<3 a true miracle and angel <3 loveyougirl
Dear Miranda, The feeling is completely mutual. You just made me blush, no big deal or anything. I won’t ever change. And I just.. ah, this is so sweet. I can’t even explain it. I love you too, really<3
I honestly I don't really know you but your video made me feel a lot better last night, recently luck just hasn't been on my side and your video made me feel like things will be okay and that I will get thru this thank you so much!
:) That was my goal. And anytime. If you ever need to talk, don’t hesitate to come to me.
Hi Kelsey! I don't personally know you, & i'll probably never get the chance to meet you, but i watched the video you made, & it was amazing. It made me smile & feel ten times better about myself. I just wanted to thank you for that.
Hey courtney. You’re connor’s little sister, aren’t you? And I’m honestly really glad that I made you smile and feel better about yourself. You deserve it.
Kelsey, your video made my heart melt. I'm so glad you're doing better. I'm sorry you even went through any of that. Ya know, your video made me feel a little more confident. <3 & it made me smile. (: If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. I know we don't talk much. Hell, we used to be best friends back in elementary school. The good ol' days. We grew apart, as most people do, but I'll always be here for you. Remember that. <3
:D I like that you said your heart melted; I love that expression. Thank you, and it’s okay. I’m glad that I made you feel confident in yourself, and I’m also glad that I made you smile. I know you’re always there, and I really appreciate it. I hope you know the same goes for you. I still do remember elementary school, and I hope you’re doing okay. If not, don’t hesitate to let me help you.<3
Truthfully, I think it’s sexy. I hate that people take advantage of it, and just have sex.. just because. For me anyway, it’s supposed to be a special thing. I know I’m going to wait until I find someone I really love, to lose it to. And, then after I lose it to someone I love, and I’m satisfied, I’ll be glad to participate in multiple orgies. I just wish penises and vaginas were more appealing looking. Ah well. The human body is just a beautiful thing.
hey kelsey, i know we didnt get started on the right root and i hope that can change because in case i ever need advice i would like to come to you without me not knowing if you dislike me or not, and if you do dislike me i understand and i respect your decision... but i would like to come to you for adivce because i think you know exactly what to say and you say all of the right things, and your video was really insprirational, and heart warming i would like to thankyou for helping many people with that video and i cant relate to what you said about your life but im sorry that all of that stuff happened and im glad your okay now, and basically just thanks for making that video and helping people, because i think you helped alot of people (:
Hey kayla. I don’t dislike you. That whole thing was childish, and I don’t even worry about it anymore. I’ll be here for you if you need to be. And I really appreciate everything you said.
I love reading your answers to questions because you're always so honest and real when you answer them. So im gonna ask you a question. (: Have you ever been in love? Like so in love that you thought you were gonna marry that person?
Thank you. :) I love receiving and answering questions. But, yeah.. I mean, I seriously wouldn’t have minded spending my life with a certain person. I know I’m only 15 years old, but that whole experience with him was one of the most powerful feelings I’ve ever felt, and I compare anyone I have thoughts of liking, to him.
Kelsey, I know you're mad at me. Or maybe you're not mad, and you just dislike me, or were offended or upset by what I said. I can understand why, and I'm sorry. But I also think you misunderstood, and that's my fault for not talking to you about it personally. I'm being 100% honest when I say that I was seriously considering talking to you that night when I was talking to Emily. Well, a talk that turned into an argument. The reason I didn't talk to you that night is because me and Emily made up, but also because my problem wasn't with you at all. I was upset by Emily's actions and behavior, and I really shouldn't have been. You were right when you said in your tumblr post that I was jealous, and that I'm insecure. But you were wrong about some things, and that's why I still want to talk to you in person. I know I was supposed to talk to you that Saturday, but I went to Falynn's party instead. That probably made your feelings about me even more negative, and I don't blame you for that at all, because I'm sure I would feel the same way. But honestly, I don't think I was ready to talk to you yet. I was feeling really upset that day, and I was still angry about everything that happened. But I'm ready now, if you'll please take me. However, I want it to be one on one, with no one else there, so maybe you could come to my house or we could meet somewhere? That is, if you want to talk to me at all. But I really hope you'll give me a chance to explain. I think it will benefit you, too, because I think it will help you understand me more, as well as the situation. I'm sorry for making you upset. I was upset to because honestly, I miss you. I still look up to you. I watched your whole video. I still read all of your tumblr posts. The other day, I was thinking about the time when we stayed on Emily's trampoline until like 3 in the morning with blankets and hot chocolate. That's when I really got to know you. And it was so fun, and I already trusted you so much after that. I meant everything I said about you being beautiful, trustworthy, honest, inspirational, and other wonderful qualities. I feel like a jerk for making you have any negative feelings towards me at all, and I'm truly sorry. Also, when I said we don't click, the reason I said that is because I thought you didn't like me. It seemed like you got along so much better with Natalie and Emily and Evan, and honestly I felt left out and a little hurt. I hope you can understand that. I do really like you, I think you have a wonderful personality, and I hope you can please talk to me about this sometime in the near future. I'm sorry that this is so long. Also, you don't have to post this, or even reply. I just wanted you to see it.
Hi Christina. I’m not going to respond to this, on here anyway. All I will say, is that, yes.. I’m mad at you, for a couple of reasons. And, maybe someday soon I will be able to talk to you, in person, and resolve things. But, for right now.. I just can’t. And I hope you understand that. My feelings were really hurt. And I just didn’t like the way things happened. But, I do appreciate this.
what do you look for in a girlfriend or boyfriend?
I like people who I can trust. Yes, that’s cliche, but really. I like people who are completely comfortable with just sitting down, looking into my eyes, or just simply holding me, and just talking about the world, and their thoughts, and their dreams with me. I like sweet talkers. I am the biggest sucker for them. I don’t mean as in players sweet talking me, because I don’t go for them. I mean, people who genuinely are sweet, and compliment me, or just say sweet things because they want to. My heart is easily melted, so that’s a big one for me. I want them to be nice to my mom, and to be outgoing around my family. I want them to gradually tell me everything about themselves, even the littlest things. I want them to have big, kissable lips, and just won’t mind kissing me, and also not having to have their tongue permanently lodged in my mouth. I want them to go on walks with me, and just hold my hand.. and just to have the presence of one another be, great and comforting. Someone who wouldn’t let x-box get in the way of our relationship. Someone who would give me piggy back rides to places. Someone who would write me cute little notes, just because they can. Someone who just genuinely wanted to be around me, and loved me. Someone who wouldn’t mind me having other guy friends, or girl friends, and not minding it, because they trust me enough. Someone who would play DDR or MarioKart with me. Someone who would just treat me, and every one I care about and love, with respect. Someone to make me happy.. essentially. I don’t ask for much, but it seems like many people can’t be committed nowadays.
Kels, you're video seriously made me cry. When you were saying that you thought about taking those pills, I just started bawling.. I honestly never knew about that, or that that would ever even cross your mind. And I wish I would have known because I literally would have been at your house every single day with you, making sure you were okay. Because I care about you, I mean yeah, we've grown apart, but I have so much love and respect for you. I think everything with you helping people out is... I can't even think of the right word, but I guess I'll just use amazing. But it's WAY more than that. You keep saying everyone is lovely, when in reality, you're lovely and beautiful. And I don't think anyone should judge you, because you're taking the time to do something not a lot of people do, help people in need of it. But I love you babbbahh#1, and I will forever and ever. Never forget that, EVER.
Aw, Britt. :| I didn’t mean to make you cry. And you know what, it’s totally okay. Cause, I didn’t let you in on what was going on. And I know that if I would have, you would have been there for me, and I appreciate it. I love you, so much. Every time I talk to you, you compliment me in some way, and I just can’t stress enough how much it honestly means to me. I love you babbah #2, always & forever, gorgeous.
Yeah it was you that I saw today in school. I totally would have said something to you but I was afraid that if it would have been someone totally different that they would think I'm crazy and that would be embarassing. (:
Ahah, it’s alright, I understand. Just, if you see me again, please don’t hesitate to be like, “hey kelsey.” It will make my day.
i really dont know you that well, but that video makes me have so much respect for you. keep doing what your doing cause its worth it. you can tell that you really want to help people and i think you really will go a long way.you definitely have a bright future in helping people, and other things im sure. by the looks of how many reblogs and likes this video has, you have a lot of people who love you. i watched the whole thing and it amazes me how honest you are. a lot of people cant do that and although i dont know you, i respect you so much for making that video.you stand up for what you believe in and its really admirable.
Honestly, thank you so much. I can’t express how grateful I am that it spread as fast as it did, and that you respect me for it/see me going places in the future.
My HERO. I was thinking about this all day, and I couldn't wait to get home and go on tumblr. Since last night when I watched your video and discovered your amazing tumblr page I couldn't stop thinking about everything you've said. You're such an amazing person and what you stand for is incredible. Not only am I personally going through a lot but many of my friends are too. You've encouraged and inspired us to make a change and you've given us hope. Before last night I wasn't sure how to get through life and I always thought that I was alone and I never wanted to tell anyone because I was afraid they wouldn't understand, but you've taught me so much. It's so hard to explain it but when I woke up this morning I felt amazing. I knew today was going to be an awesome day, and it was. For once I actually woke up with a smile on my face, and I was excited for school... how weird right? I felt changed. I felt like I was a brand new person. I walked into school with confidence instead of hanging my head down and staring at the ground. I met new people today and I talked to people I normally wouldn't have talked to. Usually school is such a miserible daily thing for me but today it wasn't. There wasn't a second that I wasn't smiling, and I believe that you're the reason for this. You've changed my life so much, and I want to thank you for that.
And I think I saw you at school today... but I'm not sure. (:
Aw, I honestly smiled the entire time I read this. First off, I would like to say that I really appreciate that you called me your ‘hero’ because, that’s a big thing to me. Secondly, I’m really glad that my video reached to you, and you were able to see it, and realize and know you are not, and never will be, alone. That was my goal. Thirdly, I’m so glad that you walked into school with confidence, and just had a great day today. Doesn’t it feel so.. great? Just the fact that you’re saying you believe the reason for your change is attitude has something to do with the video I posted, makes me feel, indescribable, really. And lastly, if you saw a shorty with a big blue sweater on with black skinny jeans, moccasins, and my hair was up, then it was me.(; If you see me again, please don’t hesitate to say hello.
Uhhh… hi. Ignore the terrible giant letters above. I tried to make it flashy - yet failed utterly. Anyways, hey. You asked me to write you a letter, because you want to know what I think of you. You told me to be 100% honest, so I will.
I think you get unlucky with your friend selections. You’ve gotten screwed over one too many times. And it sucks because now you’ll be even more apprehensive to make new friends. I think you blame yourself too much. You look at your flaws too much. Your mind gets over run by your imperfections when something goes wrong - so, you immediately blame yourself.
I think you try too hard to be mysterious. You thrive at being difficult to interpret. So, when I figured you out, you looked at me completely differently. You realized that I am much more observant than I appear to be, and that intrigues you to no end.
I think you’re too honest sometimes. Usually, it’s a good thing. However, in your Formspring, all the sexual stuff, it isn’t meant to be said to the public. I know you want people to know “Kelsey Elwork” as the most honest person they can turn to. This is fantastic, considering you want to be a psychologist. However, the information on your Formspring takes it a bit too far.
I believe that you blow things out of proportion. You get upset over things that shouldn’t get you upset, or anyone upset. And when you do get upset, your ignorance kicks in, and you shut everyone out - which is not fair to us. Sometimes you need to ease up a bit.
I think you’re confused. Not a bad thing, by any means. I am too. But I think you’re confused about your love life. You don’t know who is good anymore. You think someone is good, and then you get to know them, and BAM. No sir. Oh well - who cares? It’s high school. Having a boyfriend should not be a top priority for you. I also think you’re confused about who your “true friends” are. It relates back to your love life scenario. You feel alone, I think without any friends. You feel like no one is there to help if you fall.
Lastly, I think you’re a very nice girl. You are the person I turn to when I need help (and a couple other people.) You raised my self-confidence, a lot. I used to not think too fondly of myself - but that changed. I think our lives are much more similar than you even know. I won’t dive into that though. I really think that you’re just trying to find your place in the world. You’re trying to find out where you belong. I think you’re one of the maturer girls in our grade. With some other girls, I just can’t have a deep conversation with them. During the summer, when you told me you had feelings for me, you got upset at me. And now you think back to that, and accept it now. Now you understand, sort of, why I don’t date a lot. Oh, and you THINK you figured me out, but let me tell ya, you’re not even close ;) So, this concludes the letter, and I hope you liked it!
P.S: Hi. If you get offended at some parts, I apologize. You told me to be 100% honest! Okay bye.
Yeah, it hurt to read this at first. But, now I know, and appreciate this for what it was. I guess it hurt so much, because I knew this was all true, and no one has had the heart to come right out and tell me all that, especially at once. When I asked you to write me a letter about what you honestly thought of me, I hoped it would be sweet. This wasn’t what I expected. But, at least now I know, people notice.
I just wanted to let you know that you are my HERO. So far everything I have read on your tumblr has made an impact on me. Even though I've never met you or talked to you a day in my life, I have so much respect for you. I just got done watching your video and it takes so much for someone to do something like. You're such a brave person for everything you've done. I know for sure that you will deffinately make a huge change in the world. I've been dealing with so much lately and everything you've said has helped me. I also think that you give amazing advice, you're like Dr. Phil but with hair. (:
The fact that you say I’m your hero, honestly gives me butterflies. I’m so happy that I’ve made an impact on you, and that you have so much respect for me without barely even knowing me. I appreciate your support, and your thoughts. I’m glad I could help you, I really am. And thank you<3 My mom calls me “Dr.Elwork” when I talk to her about stuff. So, I guess you could say that. ;D
As stupid as it may sound, your video was pretty inspiring. It made me feel like I can turn to someone. I think I'm heading on my way down to the bottom, but that really brought me up. So thank you.
It doesn’t sound stupid, at all. The purpose of making that video was to hopefully inspire, and help people in some way. I’m glad it brought you up. And if you need anything, anything at all, you come talk to me okay?
12.) Your thoughts or opinions about Harry Potter.
I’ve grown up to love Harry Potter. I used to be more obsessed when I was little, though. I honestly never put the time or effort into reading any of the books. I attempted to read the first one, but, I never finished it. I haven’t seen one of the movies out of the ones that have already been released, and to be quite honest, I’m not sure which one it was. Either the third or the fourth. I have yet to see the one that just came out either, but I’ve only heard good things about it, so I’m excited to see it. I just think the story line and the magic in the movie, fascinates me. It’s so odd to look at how young the actors were in the first one, and then to look at how old they look, and are, now. You really watch them grow throughout the movies, and that’s really cool to me. I’ve always liked how they all had accents. Snape used to scare the shit out of me, same with Voldemort. I’m pretty sure Voldemort used to give me nightmares. My favorite Harry Potter would have to be The Chamber of Secrets. That will never change, unless of course I really enjoy this one. I teared up when Dumbledore died in the last one.. I hope it was the last one, or I’ll feel stupid. I heard Dobby dies in this upcoming one, and you know, that really upsets me, because I always found Dobby adorable. Oh, not to mention.. for the longest time, I would have fantasies about me being able to fly around on a broom, or me having a lightning shaped scar on my head. I owe that to Harry Potter. Thank you, J.K Rowling.
Last night, I finished ‘The Perks of Being A Wallflower.’ It has automatically became my favorite book. I honestly could relate to it, in so many ways. By the end of the book, I was convinced I was in love with the main character, Charlie. And if a boy like him existed in real life, I would be totally and completely in love. The book actually changed my perspective on certain things, and outlooks, that I’ve had on my life. It also has given me some ideas. Since I loved it so much, I felt like I should share some of my favorite quotes from the book. There’s probably quite a few, but hopefully, it will give you an idea of how wonderful this book is.
"I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn’t try to sleep with people even if they could have. I need to know that these people exist. I think you of all people would understand that because I think you of all people are alive and appreciate what that means. At least I hope you do because other people look to you for strength and friendship and it’s that simple. At least that’s what I’ve heard."
"This boy who likes my sister is always respectful to my parents. My mom likes him very much because of this. My dad thinks he’s soft. I think that’s why my sister does what she does to him. This one night, she was saying very mean things about how he didn’t stand up to the class bully when he was fifteen or something like that. To tell you the truth, I was just watching the movie he had rented, so I wasn’t paying very close attention to their fight. They fight all the time, so I figured that the movie was at least something different, which it wasn’t because it was a sequel. Anyway, after she leaned into him for about four movie scenes, which I guess is about ten minutes or so, he started crying. Crying very hard. Then, I turned around, and my sister pointed at me. ‘You see. Even Charlie stood up to his bully. You see.’ And this guy got really red-faced. And he looked at me. Then, he looked at her. And he wound up and hit her hard across the face. I mean hard. I just froze because I couldn’t believe he did it. It was not like him at all to hit anybody. He was the boy that made mix tapes with themes and hand-colored covers until he hit my sister and stopped crying. The weird part is that my sister didn’t do anything. She just looked at him very quietly. It was so weird. My sister goes crazy if you eat the wrong kind of tuna, but here was this guy hitting her, and she didn’t say anything. She just got soft and nice. And she asked me to leave, which I did. After the boy had left, she said that they were ‘going out’ and not to tell mom or dad what happened. I guess he stood up to his bully. And I guess that makes sense."
"Incidentally, Sam has brown hair and very very pretty green eyes. The kind of green that doesn’t make a big deal about itself. I would have told you that sooner, but under the stadium lights, everything looked kind of washed out."
"I feel ashamed though, because that night, I had a weird dream. I was with Sam. And we were both naked. And her legs were spread over the sides of the couch. And I woke up. And I had never felt that good in my life. But I also felt sad because I saw her naked without her permission. I think that I should tell Sam about this, and I really hope it does not prevent us from maybe making up inside jokes of our own. It would be very nice to have a friend again. I would like that even more than a date."
"Do you know what ‘masturbation’ is? I think you probably do because you are older than me. But just in case, I will tell you. Masturbation is when you rub your genitals until you have an orgasm. Wow! I thought that in those movies and television shows when they talk about having a coffee break that they should have a masturbation break. But then again, I think this would decrease productivity. I’m only being cute here. I don’t really mean it. I just wanted to make you smile. I meant the ‘wow’ though."
"I look at people holding hands in the hallways, and I try to think about how it all works. At the school dances, I sit in the background, and I tap my toe, and I wonder how many couples will dance to ‘their song.’ In the hallways, I see the girls wearing the guys’ jackets, and I think about the idea of property. And I wonder if anyone is really happy. I hope they are. I really hope they are."
"Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve."
"I guess I forgot to mention in my last letter that it was Patrick who told me about masturbation. I guess I also forgot to tell you how often I do it now, which is a lot. I don’t like to look at pictures. I just close my eyes and dream about a lady I do not know."
"And the boy kept working up the girl’s shirt, and as much as she said no, he kept working it. After a few minutes, she stopped protesting, and he pulled her shirt off, and she had a white bra on with lace. I honestly didn’t know what to do by this point. Pretty soon, he took off her bra and started to kiss her breasts. And then he put his hand down her pants, and she started moaning. I think they were both very drunk. He reached to take off her pants, but she started crying really hard, so he reached for his own. He pulled his pants and underwear down to his knees. ‘Please. Dave. No.’ But the boy just talked soft to her about how good she looked and things like that, and she grabbed his penis with her hands and started moving it. I wish I could describe this a little more nicely without using words like penis, but that was the way it was. After a few minutes, the boy pushed the girl’s head down, and she started to kiss his penis. She was still crying. Finally, she stopped crying because he put his penis in her mouth, and I don’t think you can cry in that position. I had to stop watching at that point because I started to feel sick, but it kept going on, and they kept doing other things, and she kept saying ‘no.’ Even when I covered my ears, I could still hear her say that."
“‘I feel infinite.’ And Sam and Patrick looked at me like I said the greatest thing they ever heard. Because the song was that great and because we all really paid attention to it. Five minutes of a lifetime were truly spent, and we felt young in a good way. I have since bought the record, and I would tell you what it was, but truthfully, it’s not the same unless you’re driving to your first real party, and you’re sitting in the middle seat of a pickup with two nice people when it starts to rain.”
"Sam told me as we were hanging up our coats that Bob was ‘baked like a fucking cake.’ I really had to quote that one even though it has a swear."
"Bob nodded his head. Patrick then said something I don’t think I’ll ever forget. ‘He’s a wallflower.’ And Bob really nodded his head. And the whole room nodded their head. And I started to feel nervous in the Bob way, but Patrick didn’t let me get too nervous. He sat down next to me. ‘You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.’"
"It was one of those days that I didn’t mind going to school because the weather was so pretty. The sky was overcast with clouds, and the air felt like a warm bath. I don’t think I ever felt that clean before. When I got home, I had to mow the lawn for my allowance, and I didn’t mind one bit. I just listened to the music, and breathed in the day, and remembered things. Things like walking around the neighborhood and looking at the houses and the lawns and the colorful trees and having that be enough."
"They had sex for the first time that night. I don’t want to go into detail about it because it’s pretty private stuff, but I will say that Brad assumed the role of the girl in terms of where you put things. I think that’s pretty important to tell you. When they were finished, Brad started to cry really hard. He had been drinking a lot. And getting really really stoned. No matter what Patrick did, Brad kept crying. Brad wouldn’t even let Patrick hold him, which seems rather sad to me because if I have sex with someone, I would want to hold them."
"To tell you the truth, I love Sam. It’s not a movie kind of love either. I just look at her sometimes, and I think she is the prettiest and nicest person in the whole world. She is also very smart and fun. I wrote her a poem after I saw her in The Rocky Horror Picture Show, but I didn’t show it to her because I was embarrassed. I would write it out for you, but I think that would be disrespectful to Sam."
"I asked my sister about this, and she said that Sam has low self-esteem. My sister also said that Sam had a reputation when she was a sophomore. According to my sister, Sam used to be a ‘blow queen.’ I hope you know what that means because I really can’t think about Sam and describe it to you. I am really in love with Sam, and it hurts very much."
"Personally, I like to think my brother is having a college experience like they do in the movies. I don’t mean the big fraternity party kind of movie. More like the movie where the guy meets a smart girl who wears a lot of sweaters and drinks cocoa. They talk about books and issues and kiss in the rain. I think something like that would be very good for him, especially if the girl were unconventionally beautiful. They are the best kind of girls, I think. I personally find ‘super models’ strange. I don’t know why this is."
"Do you enjoy holidays with your family? I don’t mean your mom and dad family, but your uncle and aunt and cousin family? Personally, I do. There are several reasons for this. First, I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other. Second, the fights are always the same."
"When we were all getting ready to leave, I walked up to my grandfather and gave him a hug and kiss on the cheek. He wiped my lip print off with his palm and gave me a look. He doesn’t like the boys in the family to touch him. But I’m very glad that I did it anyway in case he dies. I never got to do that with my Aunt Helen."
"I had an amazing feeling when I finally held the tape in my hand. I just thought to myself that in the palm of my hand, there was this one tap that had all of these memories and feelings and great joy and sadness. Right there in the palm of my hand. And I thought about how many people have loved those songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And how much those songs really mean. I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. I hope that they feel it’s enough. I really do because they’ve made me happy. And I’m only one person."
"When I was done reading the poem, everyone was quiet. A very sad quiet. But the amazing thing was that it wasn’t a bad sad at all. It was just something that made everyone look around at each other and know that they were there. Sam and Patrick looked at me. And I looked at them. And I think they knew. Not anything specific really. They just knew. And I think that’s all you can ever ask from a friend."
"Inside the card, I told Sam that the present I gave her was given to me by my Aunt Helen. It was an old 45 record that had the Beatles’ song "Something." I used to listen to it all the time when I was little and thinking about grown-up things. I would go to my bedroom window and stare at my reflection in the glass and the trees behind it and just listen to the song for hours. I decided then that when I met someone I thought was as beautiful as the song, I should give it to that person. And I didn’t mean beautiful on the outside. I meant beautiful in all ways. So, I was giving it to Sam."
"And she kissed me. It was the kind of kiss that I could never tell my friends about out loud. It was the kind of kiss that made me know that I was never so happy in my whole life."
"I don’t know how long I kept going to the doctor. I don’t remember how long they kept me out of school. It was a long time. I know that much. All I remember is the day I started getting better because I remembered the last thing my Aunt Helen said just before she left to drive in the snow. She wrapped herself in a coat. I handed her the car keys because I was always the one who could find them. I asked Aunt Helen where she was going. She told me that it was a secret. I kept bugging my Aunt Helen, which she loved. She loved the way I would keep asking her questions. She finally shook her head, smiled, and whispered in my ear. ‘I’m going to buy your birthday present.’ That’s the last time I ever saw her. I like to think my Aunt Helen would now have that good job she was studying for. I like to think she would have met a good man. I like to think she would have lost the weight she always wanted to lose without dieting. Despite everything my mom and doctor and dad have said to me about blame, I can’t stop thinking what I know. And I know that my Aunt Helen would still be alive today if she just bought me one present like everybody else. She would be alive if I were born on a day that didn’t snow. I would do anything to make this go away. I miss her terribly. I have to stop writing now because I am too sad."
"I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning. If this gets any worse, I might have to go back to the doctor. It’s getting that bad again."
"It’s like when you are excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. And other times you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. And all you want is to always feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means that you’re happy, too."
"Girls are weird, and I don’t mean that offensively. I just can’t put it any other way."
"That’s when I felt her other hand. It started at my knee and worked its way up the side of my leg to my hip and stomach. Then, she took her leg off mine and kind of sat on my lap facing me. She looked right into my eyes, and she never blinked. Not once. Her face looked warm and different. And she leaned down and started kissing my neck and ears. Then my cheeks. Then my lips. And everything kind of melted away. She took my hand and slid it up her sweater and I couldn’t believe what was happening to me. Or what breasts felt like. Or later, what they looked like. Or how difficult bras are."
"And then I said, ‘You know, Patrick? If I were gay, I’d want to date you.’ I don’t know why I said it, but it seemed right."
"After I read the poem that compares the woman’s hands to flowers and rain, I put the book down and went to the window. I stared at my reflection and the trees behind it for a long time. Not thinking anything. Not feeling anything. Not hearing the record. For hours. Something really is wrong with me. And I don’t know what is is."
“‘God, that kid is such a fucking freak,’ I heard one of the boys whisper when I was halfway down the hall. He said it more factual than mean, and Susan didn’t correct him. I don’t know if I would have corrected him myself these days.”
"He drove me home and pulled up in the driveway. We hugged good night, and when I was just about to let go, he held me a little tighter. And he moved his face to mine. And he kissed me. A real kiss. Then, he pulled away real slow. ‘I’m sorry.’ ‘No. That’s okay.’ ‘Really. I’m sorry.’ ‘No, really. It was okay.’ So, he said ‘thanks’ and hugged me again. And moved in to kiss me again. And I just let him. I don’t know why. We stayed in his car for a long time. We didn’t do anything other than kiss. And we didn’t even do that for very long. After a while, his eyes lost the glazey numb look from the wine or the coffee or the fact that he had stayed up the night before. Then, he started crying. Then, he started talking about Brad. And I just let him. Because that’s what friends are for."
"All I hope is that my sister feels beautiful, and her new guy makes her feel beautiful."
"I said, ‘Well, I thought a lot of things. But mostly, I thought that your being sad was much more important to me than Craig not being your boyfriend anymore. And if it meant that I would never get to think of you that way, as long as you were happy, it was okay. That’s when I realized that I really loved you.’ She sat down on the floor with me. She spoke quiet. ‘Charlie, don’t you get it? I can’t feel that. It’s sweet and everything, but it’s like you’re not even there sometimes. It’s great that you can listen and be a shoulder to someone, but what about when someone doesn’t need a shoulder. What if they need the arms or something like that? You can’t just sit there and put everybody’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can’t. You have to do things.’ ‘Like what?’ I asked. My mouth was dry. ‘I don’t know. Like take their hands when the slow song comes up for a change. Or be the one who asks someone for a date. Or tell people what you need. Or what you want. Like on the dance floor, did you want to kiss me?’ ‘Yeah,’ I said. ‘Then, why didn’t you?’ she asked real serious. ‘Because I didn’t think you wanted me to.’"
"I looked up at her. She had stopped crying. ‘So, tomorrow, I’m leaving. And I’m not going to let that happen again with anyone else. I’m going to do what I want to do. I’m going to be who I really am. And I’m going to figure out what that is. But right now I’m here with you. And I want to know where you are, what you need, and what you want to do.’ She waited patiently for my answer. But after everything she said, I figured that I should just do what I wanted to do. Not think about it. Not say it out loud. And if she didn’t like it, then she could just say so. And we could go back to packing. So, I kissed her. And she kissed me back. And we lay down on the floor and kept kissing. And it was soft. And we made quiet noises. And kept silent. And still. We went over to the bed and lay down on all the things that weren’t put in suitcases. And we touched each other from the waist up over our clothes. And then under our clothes. And then without clothes. And it was so beautiful. She was so beautiful. She took my hand and slid it under her pants. And I touched her. And I just couldn’t believe it. It was like everything made sense. Until she moved her hand under my pants, and she touched me."
"I’m sorry, but I have to stop this letter now. But first, I want to thank you for being one of those people who listens and understands and doesn’t try to sleep with people even though you could have. I really mean it, and I’m sorry I’ve put you through this when you don’t even know who I am, and we’ve never met in person, and I can’t tell you who I am because I promised to keep all those little secrets. I just don’t want you to think that I picked your name out of the phone book. It would kill me if you thought that. So, please believe me when I tell you that I felt terrible after Michael died, and I saw a girl in class, who didn’t notice me, and she talked all about you to a friend of hers. And even though I didn’t know you, I felt like I did because you sounded like such a good person. The kind of person who wouldn’t mind receiving letters from a kid. The kind of person who would understand how they were better than a diary because there is communion and a diary can be found. I just don’t want you to worry about me, or think that you’ve met me, or waste your time anymore. I’m so sorry that I waste your time because you really do mean a lot to me and I hope you have a very nice life because I really think you deserve it. I really do. I hope you do, too. Okay, then. Goodbye. Love always, Charlie."
"Maybe it’s good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Like Sam said. Because it’s okay to feel things. And be who you are about them."
"So, if this does end up being my last letter, please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough. And I will believe the same about you. Love always, Charlie."
“She was terrific to hold hands with. Most girls if you hold hands with them, their goddamn hand dies on you, or else they think they have to keep moving their hand all the time, as if they were afraid they’d bore you or something. Jane was different. We’d get into a goddamn movie or something, and right away we’d start holding hands, and we wouldn’t quit till the movie was over. And without changing the position or making a big deal out of it. You never even worried, with Jane, whether your hand was sweaty or not. All you knew was, you were happy. You really were.”—The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger (via jacvanek)
so i don't really know you. you're friends with one of my friends. but i just wanna tell you that you're an amazing person. like the fact that you made a tumblr to help others? that's just amazing. hahah this might come off as creepy, but really. i've seen you around school. you're beautiful inside and out.(: you're one of the few people in pennsbury that actually seems like an all around great person! stay that way.
The fact that you can say all that without barely knowing me, is really flattering. And I genuinely appreciate it. :) Thank you, and I plan on staying the way I am.
yay <3 i'm on your list! I'm really thankful for you too lovely, because i know whenever i need someone to be there for me, when nobody else will, just to give me that little thing i need to make it through the day when it seems like nothing's going right. I know that if i need advice about anything, or just someone to tell a story too, you're there. And i hope you can feel the same way about me, even though we've slowly been drifiting :( which is why we need to hangout a.s.a.p. and now that i'm thinking about it, i think i might facebook im you right now! love youuuuu
AW HAILEEEEEEEEEEY.<3 Let’s have a sleepover next weekend, okay? Come back into my life. I’m sorry if I’ve pushed you away. I really love you. I’mma i.m you back now and tell you how much this meant to me.
I’m kind of in a thankful mood.. ironic, right? So, yes, I think the people in my life deserve to be recognized on here, and recognized for why exactly I love them. I’m sorry if this clogs up anyone’s dashboards - just, a lot of people mean a lot to me.
Jeanette Elwork - You’re my mom, obviously. I write a lot about you, but, that’s okay. You just mean a lot to me. I seriously don’t know what I would do with myself, if anything serious were to happen to you. I look up to you; you’re essentially my role model, and my hero. You have been through so much throughout your life, yet you continue to stay strong, and provide for me and Connor. You had every reason to fall apart, but you didn’t. And you gave me the courage to keep going, even when things are tough. You’ve raised me to be a wonderful, caring person. We may fight sometimes, but you are really my best friend. When I’m not around you for a couple days, I have this aching feeling. I can’t go one day without talking to you, because you’re my best friend. I know when everyone else would walk out on me, you’d still be there. I really love you, and I’m so grateful I came out of your vagina.
Timothy Nagle - I met you freshman year, second semester, in math class. I was really intimidated by you, and I thought you were so cute. I wanted to get to know you, and I did just that. It’s funny to me, now, that you noticed all the times I tried to get you to notice me, and I had no idea you were even paying attention. We had an awkward crush on each other stage, which ended badly. But, because that happened, we became friends. I wouldn’t have came to A period, if I didn’t have you to talk to every day. This year, we became so much closer. I look forward to C period every single day, cause I get to see your lovely face. I love that you trust me, and don’t push me away, when you mostly push everyone else - especially girls - away. You let me meet your family, and you welcome me into your home, and other places that are important to you. You pick me up and hug me every day. You tell me I’m beautiful. You hold my hand on the way to D period. You write me cute notes, just because. You tell me you love me. And you know what I love most about all that? Even though we’re so comfortable around each other, and tend to act lovey towards each other, it doesn’t mean we like each other. We’re just so close, and our friendship is so natural, and fun. You’ve become a major part of my life. I genuinely love you, and you can marry me if you choose, because your mom wants you to marry me and all.<3
James Mangipie - I never call you by your last name, or at least type it out, because it’s too complicated for me to spell. o: But, I’ve known you since what, 7th grade? We’ve gradually become closer, and you’re able to completely open up to me, which I truthfully, love. Like Tim, I know you don’t judge me, and you completely accept me the way I am. I find you hilarious, even when you don’t try to be. I don’t think you ever try to be, actually, but I always laugh at what you say. I like that you talk to my mom, and that you’re, kind of close with her, actually. You’re so polite, and essentially, you’re just a sweetheart. You have me completely figured out, and it means a lot, because I didn’t even ask you to. You just, you did it on your own, and you took the time to notice. You randomly call me, just to say hey, and ask me how I’m doing.. and I know you genuinely care about me. I like the way you get nervous, and over-think everything, just like I do. You actually make me feel really safe, and calm, when I’m around you. I like when I beat you in mario-kart, but I mean, you play as Peach.. you’re bound to get beat. I like that you have the same music taste as I do, and just kind of the same taste, about most things. I really wish you weren’t so afraid of love, because if you let someone in, you’d be surprised at how wonderful things could turn out. Don’t be like me, and don’t be afraid. We’re the least compatible people in the world, and it makes me laugh. But, I love you.
Kaitlin Kelly - I’ve known you, for what seems like forever. We haven’t been close for that long, you actually used to dislike me. You had good reason to though. I’m just glad we got past that. You’re my best friend, and you always will be. I’ve never felt so comfortable around someone, in such a short time span. You walk into my house, like it’s your own. You talk to my mom, like she’s your mom. You talk to my brother, like he’s your brother. It’s just so comforting to be around you. You’re always there for me, always. And you make my problems go away without even trying. We talk about the most random shit.. seriously. I look at the youtube videos we make, and people must think something is honestly wrong with us. But, that’s another thing I love about you; you don’t care about what people think about you. I mean, I know you do.. to an extent. But, when you’re around me, you’re completely yourself, and you don’t treat me differently in front of your other friends. If people talk about you, even if it does bother you, you don’t let them know that. You’re just a truly strong person. Sometimes, I feel like you need to talk about things and people, but you bottle it up inside. And I wish you’d talk to me about it all. Cause, you know I’d hold you as you cried, or whatever the issue is. I just really love you, with every bone in my body. You’re so beautiful, and it really urks me that you don’t see it. Literally, you could never be ugly. Ever. You’re gorgeous, in every fucking aspect. It’s hard not to crush on you. You’re one of the first people I came out to, and you don’t treat me different; actually, we act like complete lesbians sometimes, and I love it. You’re just seriously wonderful, and so fun to be around. I never stop laughing when I’m around you. I hope our friendship never changes.
Emily Atwood - I had no clue you existed before a couple months ago, but I’m glad I went to your party, and our friendship grew from there. I know you used to judge, and I know that you really don’t that much anymore. You’ve grown, as a person. I can see it, and I’m pretty sure other people see it too. You’re like my little sister, literally. I’ve spent so much time with you over the past couple months. And I literally just know the code to your house, walk in, know your parents, your cats, your room, where everything in your kitchen is, etc. You’re my trick, ya. We’re so weird when we’re together, and it’s just really refreshing. You know I’m insane, but you adore me for it. “You scared?” “O, you fancy huh?” “Sh-Shut your face.” Yoshi & Waluigi for life<3 I’m pretty sure these past couple of weeks have just brought us a lot closer, and I really have no complaints about our friendship. We never fight, and I know you’d always have my back, as I’d always have yours. You know I’ll call out any bitch who makes you upset, or does something to you that I don’t like. I love you.
Abby Snyder - You were in my social studies class last year, but we never really talked. I was flattered to know how badly you wanted to talk to me, and become friends with me this year. I liked when you finally imed me, and we started to talk. I’m glad that we’ve became so comfortable around each other, in such a short time. We’re so fucking hyper and weird around each other, it’s lovely. You’re so funny, and you don’t try to be. Every time you spaz out, or every time you do that thing where you act like you’re from Tarzan, I explode in laughter. You’re just crazy, and I wouldn’t have you any other way. You’re just a beautiful, caring person. You will find someone; you’re just too much for some guys to handle. I don’t mean that in a bad way, either. You have a huge heart, and please never change. I love you.
Ashley Ginelli - We started to talk last year, over facebook. You seemed really interesting to me. I saw a lot of myself, emotions wise, in you. When I saw that you were in my English class this year.. I got so excited and happy. The fact that I was able to talk to you, and see you every day, just made me all warm inside. You’re so funny, and smart. You intrigue me, with almost every word that comes out of your mouth. The way you love everybody, and are just so genuinely nice.. makes me love you. The way you’re treated in return, really bothers me. You deserve so much more than what you are given. Like I’ve told you, I will never make you upset or mad, and I will always treat you the way you treat me. You mean so much to me, and you just, you don’t see it. I wish you thought of yourself higher, because you really just don’t give yourself enough credit. You’re absolutely beautiful Ashley. Every time you say you’re ugly, I want to just take your face in my hands and yell, “YOU’RE NOT UGLY, AT ALL.” I will make you feel better about yourself, trust me. I love you.
Evan Bossio - So, the past couple of weeks have been rough, but I’m glad we were mature about it all, and just sat down, and talked. It really made me gain a lot of respect for you, how you just sat there and listened to me. Also, how you completely opened up to me. I’m glad that you’re able to trust me like that. I know you can be stubborn and everything, and I already explained to you how I won’t let you push me away, and I won’t let you push away people who I know, love you. Ultimately, I know you’re a lovely person. You are very sweet, and you have the potential to make me, and others, feel very good about themselves. You’re sensitive, and sincere. I like that about you. I like how you don’t judge me, and you never have. You’ve always just accepted, loved, and respected me, for being me. You’re really comforting to be around. You also make me feel really warm, for some reason. I really love and care about you. I hope you never forget that. I have a thing for your lips -.- Oh, and a thing for your dog. But, you already know that. I especially enjoy how you dance around to Beyonce with me, and how you know mostly everything about me. I hope our friendship only continues to grow. I understand you, and where you’re coming from. Don’t be afraid to fall. Don’t be afraid to tell me how you’re feeling. Just be honest with me. If you actually write me that letter, and surprise me, I will never stop loving you, promise. I love you, EV.
Jake Miller - I haven’t seen you in so long. :| But every time I look back on old text messages, and think back to a couple of months ago, I fall in love, in a sense. You were always so sweet to me, and I should have opened up my eyes, and saw what I had in front of my face. You’re one of the most chill, in-depth people I know. You’re not afraid to share your emotions with me, and from the second day we met, I just was able to be my complete self around you. I love your house. I feel so comfortable there. I will get married in your back yard, you watch. I know you’d have my back with every thing, and I know when I do see you, it will be like nothing has changed. I completely trust you. I wish you’d call me more often. I’m glad you know you can call me whenever you need help, and you know that I’ll always be there. I love how big you are, and how I feel like I’m a baby when I’m around you. I hope you get more free time, and that we can go back to how we were. You saved me, and I’ll never forget you, for that. I love you.
Joel Baker - I met you in sixth grade, in the snack line at the movies. I’ll never forget how incredibly sweet you were to me. I used to crush on you. You’re just so chill, and it’s so easy to be happy when I’m around you. It’s also happy to be carefree when I’m around you, also. I like how when we watch movies, or when we hang out, I always seem to flirt with you the most, or end up in your arms throughout the night. I like when you randomly text me. You’re just so cute, in every aspect. I hope I see you soon, and I hope our plans actually go through for the first time in awhile. I know you’ll wrap me up in a huge bear hug, and I look forward to it. Thank you for being you. I love you.
Bailey Jones - So, you came into my life at the perfect time. I would talk to you on oovoo every night, and you just genuinely made me happy. Then, I met you in person, and I just felt really comfortable around you. You’re very flirty, but, I like that our friendship is never weird, just because you’re like that. I mean, you respect me, and treat me like I should be treated. You actually consider me one of your best friends, and I love that. I miss when you’d randomly call me at midnight, just because you wanted to talk, and we’d just talk about the most random things. You’re so warm, and you’re just a very positive person. I know you’re there for me when I have problems, but whenever I’m around you, I never want to talk about my problems.. just because, I’m having too much fun, and I don’t want the mood to change. You’re so outgoing, and you’re just able to act like you’ve known people all your life, even though you only met them 10 minutes ago. I love you.
Now, I don’t want to make the people that I’m about to list seem like they mean any less to me, because you don’t, honestly. I just didn’t realize how in-depth I would get, with so many people. So, I’ll just list the rest of the people I was intending to write about, and let you know that I genuinely love all of you. I mean that, with every fiber of my being. I’m grateful for each and every one of you. You may not realize it, but I love you. If I loved you at one point, I honestly have not stopped, and most likely never will. You make me happy, essentially. You’re some of the greatest people I know, and you have gotten me to where I am now. You’ve shaped me into the person I am now, you’ve shown me how I should and shouldn’t treat people, you’ve taught me a lot of life lessons, and just.. you’ve changed my life. I will never forget you. I really love you. You ever need anything? You come to me. Ah, I’m gonna cry. Jeanette Lenoir. Deanna Brogan. (The rest of Fusion.) Tyler Cartolaro. Austin Bydalek. Kyle Currey. Vanessa Garcia. Jen Krivda. Farha Ulfat. Zach McGann. Kiki Denarie. Brandon Lipkin. Brandon Hines. Dylan Wagner. Diana Gage. Dan Friedman. Dan Rednor. Jaime Jackson-Block. Julia Bokunewicz. Natalie Sirolli. Alan Reyderman. Joe Sofia. Anthony Montagno. Natalie Persico. Kyle Brennan. Tyler Borchardt. Bryan Webster. Rob Malinowski. Kevin Bentz. Pooja Patel. Brielle Donan. Alexis Cain. Amanda Albert. Hailey Ingraham. Paulina Ferdinez. Inhye Hwang. Brandon Johnson. Lindsay Kidos. Mackenzie Woods. Naajir Smith. Leigha Fechtenburg. Brian Roberts. David Gross. Kelsey Deleney. Dean Welsh. Sam Uprichard. David Lipsius. Vicky Castaldo. Amber O’Toole. Sam Piotti. Wyatt Piotti. Christina Diretto. Brianna Sanwald. Colin Sullivan. Jack Benziger. George Kremenets. Sasha Skrodinsky. Alex Aranda. Ben Immordino. Kaylin Smith. Anthony Matarease. Danny Gleason. Jackie Kahil. Donovan Haley. Matt Barlow. Gaby Gunkel. Dominick Sanelli. Lauren Dukes.
I mean, sure, I love when people write me messages on here, or just simply on the internet. But, I feel like a letter, a hand-written letter, is so much more meaningful, you know? It’s just like.. wow. Someone took a part of their day, picked up a pencil, pen (whatever they desired), and wrote to me. Me. They thought of me, to tell something to. Whether it be something important, something they are thinking, something they are feeling, something about themselves, something about someone else, or something about myself.. it’s still something, isn’t it? It’s just a wonderful feeling to know someone thought of you, to write their deepest thoughts to. It’s quite flattering actually.
I realized I get really happy when I read letters. Like, everything bad in the world just kind of vanishes, for the seconds or minutes I choose to read the letter. Sometimes, I read it over and over again. It’s just so meaningful, in so many different aspects.
Also, writing out how I feel, so.. writing a letter to someone else, really helps when I’m upset or stressed. Knowing that someone will feel happy reading what I’m saying, feel happy that I thought of them when I chose to write this letter, is just really satisfying to me. I don’t know.
Moral of this whole post is.. I’m going to write more in-depth, heart-felt, hand-written letters. And I hope to receive some back. I want them to be a surprise though. I’ve grown to like surprises. Want to win me over? Write me a letter. Give it to me one day as we hang out, or mail it to me someday without me having any knowledge about it. I will seriously adore you with every fiber of my being.
I love that phrase: With every fiber of my being.
Okay, I’m done.. rambling. I’m going to try and sleep. Happy Thanksgiving everybody. Really.
Mm, I tend to be really indecisive when it comes to choosing my favorite bands, favorite songs, favorite singers, etc. But, I’ll look through my Itunes, and choose the 3 that I seem to listen to the most. Oh, and I’ll include some songs you should listen to by them, and why I like them, as well.
1.) Maroon 5 I’ve liked this band since I was in elementary school. They just have this, calming aspect about them. All of their songs just put me at peace, and I can relate to them in some way. I really like the lead singers voice, as well. Overall, I just find them to be really, really good. Some songs I advise by them:
She Will Be Loved
Better That We Break
Won’t Go Home Without You
Makes Me Wonder
2.) Lifehouse & The Maine In eighth grade, I became mildly obsessed with both of these bands. When I was having a bad day, I would just blast them, and like Maroon 5, they would ease any pain I was having. Their lyrics really hit me hard, I think - especially Lifehouse’s. Some songs I advise by Lifehouse:
Make Me Over
From Where You Are
You and Me
Who We Are
Some songs I advise by The Maine:
Into Your Arms
The Way We Talk
Kiss and Sell
Whoever She Is
I Wanna Love You
Ho Ho Hopefully
Everything I Ask For
3.) Well, technically 4.) Coldplay I was going to split up Lifehouse and The Maine, but then I remembered that I love Coldplay. I guess essentially, I like them all for the same reasons - I like the mood of the songs, I like the lead singers voice, I like the beats, I like the lyrics, and I like how the songs hit me hard. I’m indecisive as shit. Sorry, couldn’t pick 3. Some songs I advise by them are:
10.) Talk about your pets, or the pets you would like to have.
Okay, I have two dogs.
This baby, is my Remmy. REM stands for Rapid Eye Movement. Rem has narcolepsy, which causes him to fall asleep for a short period of time when he gets overly excited. One minute, he could be jumping all over the place or eating his food, and the next he’s just laying on the floor, sleeping. He’s huge, like a teddy bear basically. But, he’s the younger dog. He’s 2 or 3 years old, I’m pretty sure. Truthfully, he makes me feel better when I’m upset. He always warms me up, and I love when he sleeps in bed with me. He loves it when I love him, and it just makes me happy. He also makes me feel incredibly safe when I’m around him. He’s just so adorable to me, I can’t help but kiss him, or talk to him like a baby whenever I see him. Oh, and when he falls asleep with the bottom of his tongue sticking out, like he is in the above picture, my heart melts.
My other baby, is Sheiba. Now, she looks like a demon in this picture because of the way the color of her eyes turned out, but I can assure you, she’s not. I’ve had Sheiba since I moved here in 1st grade, so I’m pretty sure she’s about 9 years old. She’s so much smaller than Rem, but she definitely has some ovaries. She doesn’t take his shit, and she’s just.. spoiled. I’m pretty sure she considers herself to be a princess. Although she’s older, she still acts like she did when she was younger. She jumps around, and is always hyper. I always have to kiss her, too. And whenever I say, “can I have a kiss?” and make a kissing noise with my lips, she kisses me without hesitation. I talk to her sometimes, and I seriously feel like she listens. Call me crazy, but, we all do it. She’s like, the sister I never had.
When one of them, crosses over.. I honestly don’t know what I’ll do with myself.
With thanksgiving just around the corner, I think it is important for me to say a very sincere thank you to everyone who watches, follows, reads, enjoys, or stops by this page. It means the world to me, and I am very thankful for each and every one of you.