September 2010
“According to Elizabeth Cudler Ross: When we are dying or have suffered a catastrophic loss, we all move through 5 distinct stages of grief. We go into denial because the loss is so unthinkable we can’t imagine it’s true. We become angry with everyone; angry with survivors, Angry with ourselves, then we bargain. We beg, we plead, we offer everything we have. We offer up our souls in exchange for...
15.) Lyrics that apply to your current...
How can I miss you if you never would stay? If you need time I guess I’ll go away (I’ll go away) Inside me now there’s only heartache and pain So where’s the fire? You’ve become the rain
Yeah, I’ve realized that I’m the most indecisive person, ever.
holy balls.
People annoy the shit out of me. Like, I try and be chill and laid-back, and not mind how annoying people can be. But seriously, you’re so fucking annoying. Like some days, I just want to punch you repeatedly, maybe kick you in the face or something while I’m at it, and tell you to shut the fuck up, and to go as far away from me as you possibly can. And on a side note, since when am I...
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Dear whoever is reading this,
So, I’m just sitting in bed, listening to songs and reading through things, and I decided to write this post - to clear what’s on my mind at this very moment. I’m thinking about how much has changed. I’m thinking about how much stronger I have become, and how mature I’ve grown to be with the decisions I make, and the thoughts that I...
14.) Something disgusting you do.
I don’t really know. Like I’ve said before, something that I might find perfectly normal, other people might find absolutely disgusting. I know one thing people will judge me on is the fact that I masturbate and watch porn, and the fact that I am open and honest about it. Of course, people will only say bad things about it when it’s anonymously on formspring, or behind my back....
13.) Name one person you'd throw off a cliff, one...
The one person I would throw off a cliff is Allison Devlin. Some of you reading this may be friends with her, but I don’t really mind. She is one person I genuinely hate, and I will never forgive her for what she did to me.
The one person I would marry would have to be one of 4 people: Bryan Webster, James Mangiaracina, Jake Miller, or Brandon Hines. The reason for that is because they are...
12.) Something you're currently worrying about.
1.) I’m worried about what my future is going to bring. I’m worried about how my friendships with people are going to change, because of things that are going on right now. I’m worried about pushing away, or hurting anyone else, because I’m scared.
2.) I’m worried about you. You’ve changed so much, and you’re becoming someone that I never wanted you to...
11.) Would you rather be stranded on a desert...
When I first read this question, I thought to myself that I would definitely pick the choice where I stay for 10 years with the person I love. I mean, who wouldn’t want to be alone every day with someone that you love? But, at the same time, you would have to survive. I know I couldn’t last a week without all the things I have at home. And I think that I would get so tired of the...
“I want someone I can fill all the pages of my journal with, where it comes to a point where I have run out of words, where I’m speechless, where I am silent, but at a comfortable kind of silence, the kind that develops between two lovers after having been together for so long that all they need is just their own body language to speak to one another. I want someone who won’t let...
10.) One thing you've lied about.
I don’t really lie about things often, because I don’t see the purpose. If you lie, you usually get caught up in your lie at one point or another. But, if I could think of anything that I’ve lied about right now, off the top of my head, is me saying that I don’t care. That is the biggest lie that you could ever hear come out of my mouth. I care about everything. I’m...
9.) Something that makes you sad when you think...
The one thing that makes me sad when I think about it, is the past. More specifically throughout middle school. I just went through so much change over those 3 years, and it’s just too much to handle sometimes. I went through so many best friends, I met two people who have, and always will be important to me, even if they don’t want me anymore. I started to experience a change in my...
7.) Things you like/don't like about the way you...
I like..
My lips
My freckles
My eyes
My nose
My height
My weight
My boobs
My butt
My stomach.
I don’t like..
My smile
My hair
My eye brows
My feet
My legs
How white I can look sometimes.
6.) How'd you spend $10,000.
If I had $10,000.. I would spend it on so many things. I’d spend it on endless amounts of food. I’d go on a huge shopping spree, and just get all the cute shit that I’ve wanted. I’d go and see a shitload of movies. I’d pay my mom back for the money that she’s always given me. I’d put an addition onto my house. I’d also donate it to some type of...
5.) Weird things you do when you're alone.
Everyone’s definition of weird is different, in my opinion anyway. Something I might do, you might find weird, and I might think it’s perfectly normal and okay. So, I’ll just list things that I do when I’m alone, and you can be the judge of if the things I do are weird or not. I don’t really mind.
Lay in bed, and think. I usually turn my TV on, but mute it. Turn my...
4.) The best thing to happen to you this week.
Actually, this week has been pretty good so far, so instead of just listing one thing that happened to me this week, I’m going to be difficult and list a few, that I can think of off the top of my head, right now.
1.) I went to Ihop yesterday. Literally, every time I’m at Ihop, I feel like I’m having an orgasm in my mouth. It blows my mind that some people have never eaten...
3.) 5 things that irritate you about the opposite...
Opposite Sex:
1.) Guys who don’t show girls, or anyone for that matter, any respect. Have a little courtesy; say please & thank you, hold doors for people. Also, don’t refer to women as hoes and bitches. You should be so grateful that any girl wants to talk to you, let alone be with you. The least you can do is respect her, and treat her like the princess she is.
2.) Guys who...
2.) A famous person you've been compared to.
I don’t really think I’ve been compared to a famous person. If I have, I don’t remember, or else I’d be writing about it right now. Truthfully, I don’t really mind that I haven’t been compared to anyone famous, because I wouldn’t want to look like many famous people that I know of. I mean, sure, most of them are beautiful, but most are also fake, and their...
Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from...
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shhhhquiet:
I wrote, and re-wrote you, what felt like a thousand times. I wanted to say the right things so you would “get it.” It wasn’t that I said the wrong things, it’s just that I didn’t want to upset you. I always put your happiness first. That’s how I first knew I loved you.
Yeah yeah, I know I shouldn’t. But I do; and in those rare times that I stick around long enough, or actually do...
1.) The person you like and why you like them.
To be honest with you, I don’t like anybody. I mean, the one person I can think of, I have more than a little crush on, so I won’t even go into that. But, I thought I liked this kid named Dan. I attempted to let him in, I really did. I know that he’s a sweet kid, I know that he’s been hurt, and ugh, I was the last person who would want to put him through heart-break again....
1.) The person you like and why you like them. 2.) A famous person you’ve been compared to. 3.) 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex. 4.) The best thing to happen to you this week. 5.) Weird things you do when you’re alone. 6.) How’d you spend $10,000. 7.) Things you like/don’t like about the way you look. 8.) Your last night out in detail. 9.)...
I realized tonight, that I don't have a legitimate...
“Would I rather be feared or loved? Easy: both. I want people to be afraid of how...”
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The Girl Who Proved Us Wrong
Meet Jane Gallagher.
She, like so many of us, had the unfortunate luck of falling desperately in love with her best friend. It started innocently enough.
At the time, Jane was just beginning to discover who she would evolve into as an adult. A senior in high school, she had recently abandoned her obsession with black clothing and dark eyeliner for...
This is actually, really funny. When you and your...
Day 20 – This month, in great detail
September 1st - September 18th. To be honest with you, this month has not been that bad at all. First off, I actually enjoy school this year. Like, I actually look forward to going to my classes, and talking to/seeing the people that are in those classes. I feel completely comfortable, and I just overall feel a lot more confident than I did at school last year. I think the reason why I feel this...
I have the choice of holding on to you, or letting you go. And all parts of me wants to hold on to you. It might be easier for me to just do whatever I felt like doing . But - What’s easy for me and what I feel most comfortable doing, couldn’t in any possible way be easy for you. I know I’m giving you a rough time with everything, and I don’t want you to keep stressing over something so small. I...
I wish I wasn't so terrified to let you in.
Day 17 – Your favorite memory, in great detail
I have quite a few, so I’ll just write down the ones that first pop into my head, and I’ll try and describe them in vivid detail.
1.) 6th Grade - For most of the summer in sixth grade, I spent my time with Vicky Castaldo. I remember being in her basement a lot of the time, either dancing around, or pigging out on Taco Bell and watching A Shot At Love with Tila Tequila. I remember her...
Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail
My first peck, was in sixth grade, and at that time, I was terrified of anything that involved intimacy. It was like a kiss that you’d give to your mom or something - it was so short, so simple. But, I felt so accomplished, at the time. I remember I was so nervous, and he kept threatening to shoot himself in the leg with this air-soft gun he had, in hopes I’d just cave in and do it....
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ravingsoftheclosetromantic:
Light sends brilliant shimmers off the silky, auburn tinted desire-invoking brunette locks framing a light profile and sliding down the well defined shoulder-blades. Against the rolling blue backdrop her eyes light up like brilliant emerald globes pinning a cute dimpled nose in-between that trace down to luscious, strawberry colored lips. catching my eye, they part...
3445) If you really knew me, you’d know that I...
Day 13 – Your dreams, in great detail
In my opinion, there are two types of dreams. The ones you have in your sleep, and the ones that are more of your hopes for the future. I’ll just go into detail about both.
The ones I have in my sleep: Lately, my dreams have been very weird, and not making much sense to me at all. People I don’t want to see, have been popping up into my dreams as well. An example of how weird my...
Day 12 – This week, in great detail
Alright, I’ll just start from Monday.
Monday: I was still in the poconos from that weekend, for labor day. I woke up, and was bitching, because I had no time to get in the shower, and my mom and my brother were annoying me. We ended up taking this boat out into this lake, and I really enjoyed it, because in a way, it kind of cleared my head. It let me think about a lot of things that...
Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail
I have a younger brother, named Connor. He’s a ginger, even though his hair has developed a blondish tint to it. He’s 5’10, he weighs over 150 pounds, and he’s only 12, going to be 13 in December. His feet are a size 14, and from now on, if he needs any shoes, he needs them to be personally ordered. We obviously look nothing alike, and he looks like a giant standing next to...
I'm giving up on all guys.. Honestly, NO guy has...
Day 10 – How you feel today, in great detail
So, I woke up at about 12 or 12:30ish.. which is really exciting, because I really needed the sleep. I’m actually feeling better about, well, everything. I’m on anti-depressants, which I think will help a lot with the way things have been for a year or two. I enjoy my classes, and I actually enjoy going to school. I really don’t have a problem with anyone in any of my classes,...
Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
Alright, I don’t really know where to start, but I’ll just tell you my beliefs about a couple different topics. I’m not saying I’m right, because everyone has their own beliefs and opinions, but I’m just stating what I think and feel:
Abortion: I am completely against abortion. In my opinion, I feel like if you are having sex, you should obviously know that there is...
“I hope that whoever you are, you escape this place. I hope that the world turns...”
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail
I’ll write about a moment that seemed almost perfect to me. It was back in seventh grade summer. Yes, I have a pretty vivid memory, and I could re-tell you days that I lived years ago. But anyway, I spent a majority of my early middle school years in Hannah Melemed’s backyard. I would always hang out there with Bryan Webster (who was my boyfriend at the time), Sam Uprichard, Brianna...
Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail
I’ve written about her before, but I’ll do it again, except more in-depth this time: Alright, so I’m sure anybody reading this knows who my best friend is, and if you don’t, it would happen to be Kaitlin Kelly. Before I go on, I just have to say that this picture above, describes our friendship, to me anyways. Okay, so I knew Kaitlin, because she went to my elementary...
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail
So, I woke up this morning at about 5:30-6ish. I kept drifting in and out of a sleep. I went in my room, took my bracelets, then my clothes off, got a towel, and got in a hot, steamy shower. Then, I washed my hair, and shaved, you know how it is. I got out, checked the time, and realized that I kind of had to hurry. So, I put on my clothes, applied my make-up, blowdried my hair, brushed my teeth,...
Skippin #4, Day 05 – Your definition of love, in...
Hm, my definition of love..
Love is meeting someone you’ve been waiting all your life to find. Love is finding someone who gives you hope for a better tomorrow, a better day, a better year.. a better everything. Love is feeling like you’re coming alive, having this indescribable feeling only the butterflies in your stomach know of. Love is missing someone, even after you just saw them...
“I want everyone right now to think of the little things that have happened to...”
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
My mom - Jeanette Marie Haussler-Elwork. She just recently highlighted her brown hair, which looks more blonde now, above everything else. It looks really good, especially when she wears it scrunched. She works hard to provide for herself, me & my brother. She has a lot of stress most of the time. She feels alone. She puts everyone before herself. She has been depressed, but is my inspiration,...
2875) If you really knew me, then why aren't you...
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