1.) When me and my mom are okay. I can’t even begin to express to you how good it feels when me and my mom aren’t fighting. Regardless of what I say when I’m angry, she knows how much I love her. She’s stood by me multiple times, especially when she didn’t need to. She continues to stand by me, and just wants the best for me. I love her. I’m happy with how our relationship has grown over the past couple of days.
2.) My boyfriend. I know I’ve mentioned him in quite a few posts, but I’m about to mention him in this one, too. He keeps me grounded. He always genuinely listens to me. He’s one of the most selfless people I know. I’m able to completely put my guard down when I’m around him, because there’s not one part of him that I don’t trust. He makes me feel happy to be alive. He makes me feel loved. He makes me feel like someone actually cares about my well being. And, I think that’s one of the greatest things in the world.
3.) When I meet or see public displays of people who are not prejudiced. They are accepting of who a person loves, what a person looks like, what a person is into, etc. I think it’s a beautiful thing when people can accept and love people just for being who they are. I hope to live to see more and more people grow into these types of people.
4.) The ocean. It’s just so gorgeous to me. It’s like you look out, and you never know where it ends. It stretches on and on. It’s kind of fascinating thinking about it. I feel so at peace every time I hear it crash to shore. I love the way it ebbs and flows. I love how free I feel when I’m enveloped in it. Sometimes I wish I could breathe underwater, just so I could feel that way all the time.
5.) Helping people. I get such satisfaction out of understanding how people feel, and helping them through their problems. It makes me feel like a great person knowing I made someone smile, knowing I understood even if nobody else did. Through a lot of my personal experiences, I never had someone like that there for me. I dealt with most things by myself. And I just don’t want people to have to go through what I did. All I ever want to do is help. I think the ability I have to figure people out, read them so well, and understand so clearly is quite frankly, a gift.
6.) Quotes. I could spend hours and hours just searching and writing down quotes. It’s just like.. sometimes, quotes help out more than anybody I associate with, could. It’s like I find serenity in just reading what quotes have to say, because something actually relates to how I feel, and I don’t have to talk about it. All I have to do is stare at a computer screen.
7.) Ihop. There’s just something about the idea of going there and eating my favorite meal that makes me so excited and anxious. I always order the same thing: Glass of chocolate milk, strawberry belguim waffles, and a side order of bacon and sausage. I scarf it all down. I just, when I ask you to go to Ihop with me, you should know that you mean a lot to me. I only want to go there with people I really genuinely care about.
8.) The idea of staying up late and knowing that I don’t have to wake up in the morning for any specific reason. I hate knowing that I have to wake up and do something. I just like the freedom of being able to stay up all night, and sleeping in til whenever I please.
9.) Barnes and Noble. I could literally sit in there all day. I do love books, and that’s part of the reason why I love it there. But, there’s just something about the atmosphere in there that I can’t get enough of. It’s so peaceful. It’s so sophisticated. I feel so grown up whenever I’m there. I guess I like the idea of being surrounded by what seem to be other mature people who are just relaxing, and attempting to find beautiful words wrapped in a book, like I am.
10.) Porn. I don’t care what anybody says about it. I love me some porn. I love being touched. I have needs. I have urges. I love acting upon sexual things, and I like talking about them. I like watching them. We’re all human. It’s natural.