It’s weird to see people who you haven’t talked to in awhile. The way they speak, move, and the things they say have all changed. Drastically. Yet there’s still that little streak, the one that really messes with me, that you can always trace them back to. Their core and essence. I know this sounds corny the way I’m describing it, but it’s difficult to explain. It’s like that day in grade school where they told you that ice and clouds are really the same thing in two different forms. It’s just like that.
It’s how I feel sometimes. Like a vapor. Translucent. Weak. I haven’t seen myself in a very, very long time. No one has.
what im saying is that you wouldnt know if you didnt find out about something because you never knew it happened. and my tits are real chill :)
I understand what you meant. But, what I mean is that someone always tells me. Since I talk to a wide range of people from different groups, I always seem to find out. Yeah, sure, probably not EVERY single time, but the majority of the time, I do. And it amuses me. But, I’m glad your tits are chill anon. ;)
It irks me when people talk about me behind my back, because I ALWAYS find out about it. That’s not an exaggeration, I always find out about it. I have my ways, I have my connections. It just makes me laugh. My tolerance and trust in people just keeps becoming lower and lower. I’m pretty set on the group of best friends that I have currently, though.
It irks me how much I can do for someone, and then I still get treated like shit in return. Don’t get me wrong, I help people out on a daily basis - although I don’t know them - and I don’t expect anything in return. That’s just how I am. But, close friends.. It bothers me how someone can just ignore everything I’ve ever done for them. Sure, ignore the times I’ve stayed up til’ 3 or 4 in the morning on the phone just to talk to you. Sure, ignore all the times I’ve given you advice and had your back. You’re cool now. You drink, you smoke, you’re in high school.. I understand that. But, remember that I was the one person who completely understood you. And I am no longer willing to be there for you anymore. Sucks.
It irks me how much people change. I mean, everybody does, including myself. But, people who change for the worse, you know? It’s like as soon as you enter high school, everybody changes. What really makes a best friend anymore? Everybody drifts apart eventually. I just wish forever actually lasted.
It irks me how quick people are to judge when they don’t know me personally. Yes bitches, I know you talk about me. I also know I have never spoken a word to you in my life. But, I mean, if you want to talk about me amongst your group of losers, that’s your business. I know who I am, and so do a bunch of people who actually love me. It’s pathetic that you’re so upset with your own lives that you have to try and bring other people down to your level by hurting their feelings. People like you make me hate humanity.
It irks me how my Bio teacher has favorites. He only seems to target me and my partner, Tim. He thinks he’s so fucking hysterical. Nothing he says is funny, no one understands his humor or ever laughs at anything he has to say. He calls me out all the time, and it’s like he gets a kick out of it. I’m convinced he has a serious pedophile crush on one of the students in my class. He honestly bothers me in every aspect. He’s one of the biggest douche bags I’ve ever met, and if he keeps it up, I’ll be contacting someone who can fix this little problem we seem to be having.
Hello, dear. I won’t post what you said, because you asked me not to, and that’s completely understandable. First off, I want to say I appreciate you saying you admire me. It makes my heart melt whenever someone tells me that, especially someone I don’t know well. Secondly, I have not talked to her. I’m actually worried about her also. The past couple of days I’ve really been missing her a lot. It’s just, most of the time it feels like she has fallen off the face of the Earth and it’s really upsetting. If I knew or heard anything recently, I’d tell you, but I really have no idea. As for the last part of what you said, it’s because of people like you I continue to do what I do. Thank you for being such a sweetheart.
No one cares about my problems. At all. If I go tell someone about it, and they all blow it off like it's nothing...
Clearly you’ve never talked to me then. :p No, but seriously, most people our age don’t know how to relate or really take the time to listen to someone. I mean, sure, they attempt to listen to what you have to say. But, sometimes, just being listened to and sympathy just isn’t enough. Sometimes, you have to be able to talk to someone who understands and has been through what you have been through. You’re going to the wrong people, and it’s actually appalling people can just blow your problems off like they mean nothing. You are worth something. I care about your problems, and I wouldn’t blow them off.
But, from watching the people closest to me hurt, crying, and depressive, I’ve realized the pain that I’ve personally felt amounts to nothing compared to the pain I feel when I watch someone I love be upset, or feel like they are alone.
I really do put everyone I love before myself.
I’m still trying to figure out if that’s a good or a bad thing.
I hope one day after you and your bf break up I can have a shot with you theres no one like you out there
As flattering at this is, I don’t even want to think of the day where me and Zach break up. That actually kind of makes my stomach turn. And even if something did happen - which, I really hope it doesn’t because he’s as close to perfection as you could possibly get - it would take a very long time for me to move on. I definitely wouldn’t be interested/looking for someone. But, I know you had the best intentions with this message so I do appreciate it. I assure you there is someone else out there in the world just like me, love.
I hate becoming attached to people because, when I do, it’s that much more difficult when they leave, or, if after I die, I never see anyone I love again. I’m not saying that to be cute, or to be cliché, or to make you feel an artificial sense of significance, because the significance you have in my life doesn’t really need an exaggeration. I feel like I’ve spent more than fifteen years (which doesn’t really seem like too much, but it’s all I know) learning that people aren’t worth dedication. Not to sound condescending or anything, that’s not my intention. Just that people generally aren’t worth it, because everything they do is evolutionary, and evolution has caused for human beings to be very selfish, narcissistic, pompous, egomaniacal (the list goes on) creatures. And people only do things to benefit themselves.
I don’t feel that with you.
I know you’re just a human being. We’re all just human beings. I’ve come to notice that you do a lot of things people wouldn’t normally do. You put yourself in a very vulnerable emotional position when we talk, and I appreciate that. A lot. I know there’s a phrase or a string of words I could assemble to express how much your entire being has affected me, but I honestly just don’t know what they are. But when I think about it, I get a sickeningly lovely feeling.
Yeah, I never really got that feeling before you.
But when I’m deprived of your existence and your presence and your essence… that’s when I don’t feel so well. The situation pretty much only became more extreme after you hopped over the wall I built up and hung out with me for a while.
Just wanted you to know that you’ve permanently restored my faith in humanity, and I miss you a lot when you leave.
Anonymously tell you what I want to get off my chest?
Here we go.
I know you don't appreciate anon posts as much, but I'm going to give it a go.
You are a beautiful person, inside & out. I wish I were as lucky as your boyfriend to have a girl like you. I wish I was as comfortable in myself to have a girl like you. Or even to admit that I like girls. But you're the first person in a while, who while having a boyfriend, makes me feel like it'd be okay should I like women.
I hope someday someone as beautiful, kind, genuine, loving & confident as you walks into my life, preferably single ;)
Continue to do what you do, it's inspiring.
Mm, you’ve definitely left me wondering who you are. But, thank you. This is incredibly sweet and it feels good to know someone thinks I’m all of those things, regardless of if you’re anonymous or not. :-) Oh, and by the way, don’t ever feel ashamed if you like girls. Girls are beautiful and precious, what’s not to like, y’know?
Okay, I don't think I have to be anon, so I won't.
I don't really 'love' you since you have a boyfriend and everything, but I think your a really good person, like honestly, I wish I could be more like you sometimes and if there were more people like you, this world would be a much better place. I like your optimism, your sincerity, and kindness, as well as the way you think about some things, plus your hilarious sometimes without even realizing it. Your an inspiration to a lot of teens I bet, hell I'm one of them. Keep being amazing, you’re really good at it.
Truthfully, I’m glad you didn’t write to me anonymously. This meant a lot more since you allowed me to see who you were. It means a lot that you can say all of this just by reading what I say and seeing my inner thoughts posted on this blog. I can’t begin to tell you how wide the smile on my face is right now, but please don’t hesitate to start a conversation with me sometime in the near future. :-)
Today was kind of cathartic and it was sort of sad and the last person, the last one who bothered sticking around, left today. I made him leave, rather. I'unno. That's everybody. I kind of feel like a snake, shedding all of these skins.
But it's okay. You know. It will always be okay. If everybody comes in to your life for a reason, they walk out of it for one as well.
It's sort of silly to hang on to people anyways, you know? You're never gonna win if you care because there is no winning because there's no fucking game, there's just losing and that's all. And the only way not to lose is to not get hurt and the only way to do that is to just not care.
I don't know. I don't fucking know. I thought I did, but I don't.
Hi! I know we've never talked but I think you are such a sweet& beautiful girl, inner and outer. Just everything you do for people is outstanding. You're amazing. <3
Hello sweetheart. I truthfully think the same about you, and I’ve seen the love and care people have towards you on here and I think it’s wonderful. I really appreciate this, and you’re amazing too<3 Please, always keep your head up love.
Something I could sit here and think about for hours and hours is how our world, and universe is connected, and how it was created. My mind draws a blank every time when the thought of nothingness becomes something? I believe in God. But everything I think how could there always be a God? How did he come about? It blows my mind. What is all this? It’s crazy. Even for those of you who don’t believe in a god, I would love to hear your output. Even that blows my mind. How could nothing be something? How could nothing suddenly erupt into something? But if nothing created us, how is it we go on to live after we die? There’s no way a random explosion could form all this. How could a big bang just connect our solar system perfectly? I strongly believe each of us has a connection with the universe. I think it can determine moods at times, I think it can increase luck for a person. I think each person has a special connection with a different part. Which brings me to, there has to be other life somewhere. In an endless universe how could there not be? How can space be endless? It’s all so crazy. Time in multiple dimensions seem to exist as well. These black holes that suck things up and take them to a different sector or dimension. That’s crazy to me. It’s just a shame that it shreds us apart, and we can’t see what’s on the other side. I believe we are here to learn from our mistakes and if we became a better person out of our time here, we move on. If not, we are forced to start over. But this is a topic I often find myself thinking about.
Hi followers, or anyone who tends to stumble across my page.
I’m in a really, how do I say, loving and happy mood tonight. I’m also in a very curious mood as well. I’d like to ask of anyone who reads this, or ask anyone who cares, to leave me something in my ask box. Whether it be how you feel about me, how you’re feeling, your inner most thoughts, facts, sexual questions, whatever you would like. I’m just simply in the mood to interact with people and find out things that maybe I didn’t know yesterday, or even an hour ago.
You asked for it. Let me start out with it sucks so bad of how heartbroken i am.I know i was in-love.I was so inlove.. to find out the feeling wasn't mutual after years.I started hurting myself in anyway pills&cutting since i was 12.Because of him, My family is a hectic mess.. they never stop argueeing. Its horrible, I could never go to them for this. I just quite frankly dont see the point of living. Most of my 'friends' dont care to look past my first coat and see how broken to pieces i still am and always will be. When i walk down the halls i see that i really have no friends and i am and always will be my own person. I've gotten to a point where i have no actual friends that i can go to but they all can come to me.All guys ever want to do is use me. honestly.. i will never be able to be with a guy since him. Hes hurt me so much and with all the shit going on i just want to sit at home and cry.. I try so hard to be happy but its all so fake.
I would like to respond to this, but, I know you just wanted to vent. With that being said, I wish I could help you outside of this post. So, truthfully, if you need someone to come to, you can ALWAYS come to me. I know how it feels to not be able to go to anyone, yet everyone comes to you. If you want to just continue to message me anonymously, that’s fine. But, messaging me personally is fine too. Take care, love.
have you ever been in love with someone? if so, who and when? and i know that might soon creepy, but i've never been in love and you inspire me to go and find someone. but the thing is, i think im ugly and no guy will ever love me ): help me.
Yes, I believe I am currently in love. I used to think I was in love, before I met my current boyfriend. But, truthfully, I didn’t know what the fuck I was doing. I’m happy I went through all the heart break and emotions that I went through because it helped me figure out how to act in a relationship, how to love somebody like they should be loved, and what I should look for in a significant other.
Now, let me tell you something sweetheart, most girls believe they are ugly. Some girls may be the most beautiful creatures in this world, but still may be convinced that there is nothing special about themselves. Now, people create stereotypes as to what “beautiful” should look like, but honestly, there is no certain way you have to look to be classified as beautiful. I could better point out things that are special about you if I saw your picture or knew you in real life. But, if I can tell you one thing… there is always someone out there that will love you and cherish you for everything you are. You just haven’t found them yet. Don’t rush, though. As hard as it is, you need to be patient. And take it from me - don’t look for love, let it come to you. The best kind of love is the one that appears when you least expect it to. Please don’t give up.
Also, for you to improve your self esteem, I’ve heard it works to look in the mirror every morning and point out something good about yourself that day. Or, spend a lot of time naked. It may feel awkward at first, but you’ll learn to appreciate yourself more. Remember, you have to love yourself before you’re able to genuinely love others.
I like when people go out of their way to do something to make me smile. Not because I ask them to, but just because. I’m not always in a great mood and there are a lot of people that tell me to cheer up or to smile but don’t do anything about it. Then there are those who come out of nowhere and do something so small but so amazing and it turns my entire mood around. To those people, I say thanks.
1.) No matter what, you will always be my best friend. I hope you’re aware of that. We can go a week or so without having any contact whatsoever, but it doesn’t even matter to me. I still consider you to be my best friend. I just want what’s best for you. It really pains me when I know you’re upset, or not being treated the way you deserve. You honestly deserve the best, and deserve better than what you receive. You are the most beautiful girl I know. I have so much fun when I’m around you. You bring out the best in me. I hope we’re able to see each other more. I will always love you, and put you above everyone.
2.) Where do I even start with you, babe? You have made such a huge impact on my life in such a short amount of time. You restored my faith in love. You made me believe anything was possible. You push me to do better, and you make me feel beautiful and sexy and confident. I never grow tired of you. I’ve become so attached to you, and you to me, and I think that scares the both of us. I love being able to hold you, and being able to kiss you whenever I please. I love how I trust you with everything, and you’ve quickly become my best friend, along with my lover. You’re everything I could have looked for in another human being. You have the brown hair that tends to curl at the ends. You have the most adorable blue eyes, and every time I look into them, especially when you’re telling me how you feel, I can visibly see the sincerity in your words just by looking into your eyes. You have the most kissable and soft lips. I love to trace over them with my finger, and press my lips against them just to get a taste. Your body is so perfect and fitting. Your hips are so lovely to me, as well as your butt. You aren’t afraid to treat me the way you do in private, in front of other people. You enjoy introducing me to people who are most important to you. We have the most passionate moments. You’re such a sweetheart, and I fall for you more and more each day. I was never quite sure what love felt like, but if I had to guess, it’d be like what we have. I truthfully love you. Thank you for treating me the way I deserved to be treated all along.
3.) You mean the world to me. I will never tell your secret. I just wish I could do something a bit more about the situation, but that’s almost impossible at the moment. I have so much fun when I’m around you. I can’t stop laughing, and I just feel so comfortable around you. I love just simply chilling in your room, talking about life, scrolling through nude blogs on Tumblr and rating the girls, eating, and watching Baggage. I believe we thrive off of the other persons happiness. I care about you so much, you really don’t even realize it I don’t think. It pains me when I see you’re upset. Please don’t hide anything from me, because I can always tell. Just let me in, and don’t push me away. I love you so much.
4.) I’m glad you’re finally happy, because you have deserved to feel this way for such a long time. I knew things would start to look up for you, and it just, it fills me with so many emotions. Every time I look at you, I can’t help but melt a little inside. You are seriously one of the most beautiful human beings I’ve ever laid eyes on, and you don’t even try. You have such a natural beauty about you. Sometimes, I wonder what would have happened if I had given you a chance. But, then, a part of me knows that it was probably the right thing, because we’re both finally happy where we’re at. And that’s simply all I could have ever asked for; for the both of us.
5.) I was going to write about you, but then I decided you’re not worth my time. Have a nice life.
6.) I think about you sometimes, and wonder how you’re doing or what you’re doing. I think you hate me, although I don’t quite understand why. I know we’ve both hurt each other, I’ve probably hurt you worse than you’ve hurt me. It probably kills you to see me with someone else. I know it did before. But, I just hope that you’ve moved on and found someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. I hope we can still maintain a close friendship, and that you haven’t completely turned into a douchebag when you come home.
7.) I’m glad everything is settled and has been put into the past. I’m glad I did what I did, because it got us to where we are now. You really are a great person. I’ve always hoped that we would be able to put what happened before in the past, and would be able to maintain a close friendship again. I feel like that’s when we’re at our best, when we are close friends. I trust you with my life, and I feel completely comfortable around you. It’s weird to say that in October, we’ll have known each other for 3 years, and been in each others lives for 3 years. I’m glad you’re happy again, and found someone who makes you feel whole again. I’m glad I contributed in making that relationship happen. I will always be there for you.
8.) I miss you so much. I wish I saw you more often, but unfortunately, that’s not possible due to certain circumstances. I really think if I were to ever date a girl, it’d be you. You’re one of my very best friends, and I would give you, literally the world, if I could. I just feel so great whenever you’re around. I can’t help but be attracted to you in all ways. You saved me, too. I don’t think you know that, but really.. you saved me, and continue to save me whenever you’re in my presence. I feel like we both equally needed the other. Whenever I tell you you’re one of my favorite people on this planet, I genuinely mean it. I love you so fucking much. Please see that.
9.) It really upsets me that I don’t see you much, anymore. I really wish I knew exactly what was going on in your life, or in your head. I really love and care about you. You’re so much fun to be around, and I just love your existence. I wish you didn’t have to deal with all that you’ve dealt or continue to deal with. Sometimes, I blame myself. I feel like it all started once things between me and you didn’t work out. I hate to put that blame on myself, but shit, I just wish I treated you better at the time. You deserve someone who loves you as wholeheartedly as you love them. Please come back into my life, very very soon.
10.) Truthfully, our friendship has pretty much completely vanished. It definitely upsets me more than I allow people to see. It’s just like.. I worry about you. We had so much fun together. The amount of times you have called me upset or angry really makes my heart hurt. You’ve started to treat me differently in person. I just feel like I’ve been automatically bumped to the bottom of your priorities. I feel like you just instant message me when you’re bored and feel like you have nothing else to do. I wish our friendship could be how it used to be, but I don’t want to ask too much out of you. I still love you. I just wish you could be who you used to.
11.) I miss you. It seemed like we were so close for a solid two weeks, and then it just seemed like everything started to fade away. I know you really care about me, and I really care about you. I think we’re just both caught up in our relationships. I’m thankful I at least have a class with you and get to see you during that. You’re just adorable, and I love the conversations we have. You’re so unique, so mature. You’re like a closed book that I love to open up and read. You’re just very intriguing and interesting. I hope our friendship continues to grow, and that we actually find time to hang out outside of school sometime soon. I think we both need that.
12.) I know I really hurt you, and it’s one of my biggest regrets. Now, you barely want anything to do with me. Yeah, you put on a smile and give me a big hug whenever you see me. But, our conversations and the way you act when we talk is very obviously different. I just want to grab you on either side of your face and tell you that I’m deeply sorry, and then just wrap you up in my arms. But, I feel like I can’t. I think I’ve done enough damage. I shouldn’t have pushed you away like I did. I don’t know, talking about this makes me upset. I just wish we could go back to how we used to. I miss you more and more each day.
13.) I’ve now began to realize how you felt, and why you wanted to spend so much time with your significant other. I’m sorry I didn’t understand at the time. Pictures and videos make me miss you so much. You will always be like my big sister. I hope we are able to catch up sometime soon.
14.) I think a part of you misses me. A part of me misses you, too. I’m not afraid to admit that. I just don’t have any desire to be the one who talks first, because after what you said to me, I don’t have much of a desire to even talk to you at all. You said what you did like it was nothing, like you didn’t care much how it would affect me. Shit like that sticks with you, did you know that? You’ve changed, too. For the worse. And in our situation, I personally think my change was for the better. I thought we’d be best friends forever. High school really does change people. I miss when you didn’t care what people thought about you. Now I don’t, and you suddenly do? Funny how things work.
15.) I never really understand how much it must hurt when I barely answer you whenever you try and talk to me. I just feel like our conversations are so repetitive, and never really go anywhere. A part of me also feels like it’d be better if I didn’t answer you most of the time so you could move on and find someone better. I’m sorry that I was and am probably really inconsiderate towards your feelings. You really held me up when I was about to fall apart completely. I will never forget you. Distance blows.
Alright, so I’m on http://www.phobialist.com/ And I’m going to go through and paste all the fears I see, that I feel like I have. I’m actually quite curious.
Achluophobia- Fear of darkness. Agliophobia- Fear of pain. Agraphobia- Fear of sexual abuse. Agrizoophobia- Fear of wild animals. Aichmophobia- Fear of needles or pointed objects. Antlophobia- Fear of floods. Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting. Atomosophobia- Fear of atomic explosions. Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself. Cancerophobia or Carcinophobia- Fear of cancer. Cardiophobia- Fear of the heart. Cheimaphobia or Cheimatophobia- Fear of cold. Cryophobia- Fear of extreme cold, ice or frost. Emetophobia- Fear of vomiting. Gamophobia- Fear of marriage. Gerascophobia- Fear of growing old. Hoplophobia- Fear of firearms. Hypengyophobia or Hypegiaphobia- Fear of responsibility. Macrophobia- Fear of long waits. Metathesiophobia- Fear of changes. Musophobia or Muriphobia- Fear of mice. Myrmecophobia- Fear of ants. Necrophobia- Fear of death or dead things. Nosophobia or Nosemaphobia- Fear of becoming ill. Nyctohylophobia- Fear of dark wooded areas or of forests at night Nyctophobia- Fear of the dark or of night. Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight. Ommetaphobia or Ommatophobia- Fear of eyes. Ophidiophobia- Fear of snakes. Ouranophobia or Uranophobia- Fear of heaven. Pneumatiphobia- Fear of spirits. Pnigophobia or Pnigerophobia- Fear of choking of being smothered. Poinephobia- Fear of punishment. Scelerophibia- Fear of bad men, burglars. Sciurophobia - Fear of squirrels Selachophobia- Fear of sharks. Spectrophobia- Fear of specters or ghosts. Taphephobia Taphophobia- Fear of being buried alive or of cemeteries. Testophobia- Fear of taking tests. Thanatophobia or Thantophobia- Fear of death or dying. Tocophobia- Fear of pregnancy or childbirth. Tomophobia- Fear of surgical operations. Traumatophobia- Fear of injury. Tropophobia- Fear of moving or making changes. Trypanophobia- Fear of injections.