So eh I kinda had a sex dream about you... nd that's really strange because I like to think we're kinda close in a weird way but yeah
Well, I mean I’m not judgmental and I’m a pretty big pervert so I welcome these kind of confessions :p But really, if you want to tell me more details or who you are, feel free to! If we were kind of close, in a weird way (which I don’t really know what that means, but tis’ all good) you should know how open I am to this kind of thing.
5 things you wish you could have said to 5 different people.
1.) I appreciate everything you’ve ever done for me and I wish I didn’t take advantage of you like I did. I see people making the same mistakes I made, and I don’t understand how I could be so foolish. I deeply regret my actions towards you.
2.) You come in and out of my life whenever you please. You never are involved in my life, and you act like you’re this wonderful father when you have never amounted to anything close to what a good father is and would be. I use to get really emotional when it came to you, wondered what was wrong with me and why you didn’t want to be involved in my life. But I’ve come to the realization that you will never change and the only option I have now is to accept how you are, that things won’t change, and continue living my life because I’ve made it this far without you.
3.) I wish that we could be friends, but it’s just literally impossible. It sucks.
4.) I miss you a lot. Our friendship was so strong and I just feel like we lost it. I know you have a lot going on in your life and I respect that. I know we’ll always keep in touch regardless. I just wish things would have worked out differently. You’re one of the best people I know.
5.) Sometimes I feel like you just don’t give a shit about me unless you need to come to me with some type of issue that you’ve having. Of course I will always help you because I care, but it’s not fair that I don’t exist any other time. Maybe sometimes I need help or maybe sometimes I want to just hang out and talk. But I don’t think you care and it sucks
“How many times have you tried to talk to someone about something that matters to you, tried to get them to see it the way you do? And how many of those times have ended with you feeling bitter, resenting them for making you feel like your pain doesn’t have any substance after all? Like when you’ve split up with someone, and you try to communicate the way you feel, because you need to say the words, need to feel that somebody understands just how pissed off and frightened you feel. The problem is, they never do. “Plenty more fish in the sea,” they’ll say, or “You’re better off without them,” or “Do you want some of these potato chips?” They never really understand, because they haven’t been there, every day, every hour. They don’t know the way things have been, the way that it’s made you, the way it has structured your world. They’ll never realise that someone who makes you feel bad may be the person you need most in the world. They don’t understand the history, the background, don’t know the pillars of memory that hold you up. Ultimately, they don’t know you well enough, and they never can. Everyone’s alone in their world, because everybody’s life is different. You can send people letters, and show them photos, but they can never come to visit where you live. Unless you love them. And then they can burn it down.”—Michael Marshall Smith (Only Forward)
“I’m not fascinated by people who smile all the time. What I find interesting is the way people look when they are lost in thought, when their face becomes angry or serious, when they bite their lip, the way they glance, the way they look down when they walk, when they are alone and smoking a cigarette, when they smirk, the way they half smile, the way they try and hold back tears, the way their face says they want to say something but can’t, the way they look at someone they want or love… I love the way people look when they do these things. It’s…beautiful.”—Unknown (via stillsea)